16th Aug
Planned a birthday surprise with Norah and Fliq for Kiddo's birthday. =) Got him and everyone else a cake which is chocolate and with cookie bits in it. Totally nice, but totally muak also. =) Surprise the birthday boy when GPS and he were shisha-ing. I came with Fliq, Sukashi and her friend, Fifi. Nice girls. Casper said he was fuckin shocked to see his date holding a cake for him. Meh, maybe that's what I think he only saw. Coz they were both wearing the same top. Macam cute gitu kan. =)
After that, me and Norah went for Comic Strip's birthday bash gig at MG. Totally fun! Skank-ing all alone and of course memories of the last CS gig I went came back. =) I promised that will be my last gig until after Os. Hopefully, this promise will make it through. And I get to hug Shidah! =D So exciting(for me, that is)! I We got to talking when I asked if she knew Reezan. =D What a subject~ Anyhoos, saw Wawa there also. There's a bunch of rudies, mods, and skinheads; as usual when CS is having a gig. Reached home at around 12+.

17th Aug
I was supposed to work that morning but mama says there's jemputan, so I was being a bitch and cancelled my work. Bitch~ In the end, I decided not to go since I got a lot of homework to do and asked Fitri and Norah along. Fitri asked Ayie along also. Didn't ask Fliq along coz she working. Then we studied together at McDonalds and talked in pairs and gotta know some stuff. Then we went back to Fitri's house and watch Kuntilanak 3 until 11 plus. It wasn't scary, only the sound effects are quite surprising. We went to send Norah back home and Ayie and Fitri send me back. Quite sweet of them actually. =)

18th Aug
I went to study again, with Norah and Fitri. Ayie skate. It's been very intensive studying for me. Everyday I've been going out to study. I can't stay at home and do it, I'll tend to use my laptop. It was so cold at Mac and we decided to change place to a resident's corner near WM. Thankfully the rain yesterday wasn't so heavy. Else we'll be stuck there. Norah went home and me and Fitri sat around for a while under her block. Talked CRAP like serious crapping session. I think we made a hell lot of noise although it was only the 2 of us. That was how CRAP we were yesterday night. There was this guy from Comic Strip who's also Norah's friend want to get to know me. =0 I so regret man. He's like kinda irritating, but being a nice person that I am =) layankan je. I might like this other boy, but if I do, I'll crush people's heart. So might as well not right? Right?

cute right? =D

And all
I had
Is the memory of what was.
Thank you, Reezan.

I CAN get over it. With my happy pills!
I love them lots!
I CAN and I WILL!
It's tragic, but it's your loss.
Thanks a lot!

I went to the polyclinic with Norah just now to go get her MC. Mcm kakak2 lah gitu kan. We met with Kiddo after that and Norah starts to call us like we're her big brother and sister. Haha! How nice~ =D Happy pill!
I wasn't able to keep my promise of 3 sticks. But oh well. Let's make it till four. =)
I am tired of crying for 4 straight days. I don't want to cry anymore. I'll just pretend that it'll go away soon. And I'm sure it WILL. Okay, shut up about the sad stuff. I got my Happy Pills!
Norah let me play with the bubbles!! So exciting! I've never played with bubbles and I got Push POP! Very vintage stuff today. =) 'I LOIKE!' Haha! Happy Pill!
Ayie let me play with the DIMPLE! Wow, so exciting. Haha! People with dimple, you know it, 'I LOIKE!' Haha! Fuckin hell. Catchy phrase. =DD Happy Pill!
Fliq took pictures and made me laugh at her bimboness! 'I LOIKE!' Happy Pill!
Kiddo is a horny big brother with 2 Push POP! Happy Pill!!
Lastly, I am my OWN Happy Pill!!
Wui, 'I LOIKE!'
=D



Enough friends for Happy Pill! =D

Everything is not for forever. It ended tonight.
The love that I hate. Unrequited ones.
False pretenses. Fake emotions.
One thing that leads to another. Cowardice of honesty.
Red drops and tired tears fell. As one.
The heartache that offsets my triumphs. Just that one day.
Was it excuse? No one knows.
Bury the feelings. For love is poison.
It slowly eats you up inside. Trust in this.
The memories on paper. I will burn into ashes.
Just to let the feelings go away. Like the flames eventually die.
This love was a mistake. How foolish of me.
Do not be like me. Make your own.
For love is poison. Bury it far away from you.
-Lina

Friday
There was a school's National Day celebration and the Sec 4E got to go to Botanic Gardens. I borrowed Norah's camera that day and took quite a lot of photos. =)

( photos. )

Saturday
I went out with the family to East Coast in the morning and went in the water. I got tanned fairly quickly and went to wash myself up to go to meet Norah at MG. The punk gig was awesome. But the people are quite scary. Then after that hung out with Norah's skinhead friends. They're much more friendlier than the punks. Norah and I met up with them at SMU then I had to go off already.

Sunday
I went out at around 1030 to SA to meet up with GPS to go Sentosa. It was fun! But hell I was the only girl there. There was Ayul, Wan, Ayie, Is and Black. I went in the water as well. But seeing as the sun wasn't up when we were there, coz it rained beforehand, I didn't tan. The water was fucking COLD! Laughed a lot with the guys. After that we split up somehow. There was Ayul, Black and I in one group and the rest met up with Kiddo at Vivo. Black, Ayul and I were stuck at the OSIM exhibition. Actually, they were. They sat down at one of those massage chairs and chill. The rest went to eat at Harbourfront interchange food centre. Actually, Norah wanted to go but she got gig that she promised her friend she would come. So she can't come with us. Fliq was working and Kiddo got wedding to attend. When we went home I got to thinking about my problems and dilemma and I felt fuckin down about it. I decide to tell someone from the group and I cried on him. I felt so fuckin stressed out at the fact that I'm crying, in front of a boy coz I've never broke down in front of a guy before. I hope he understands. I let the floodgates break at just one gesture. I lost it. Imma fuckin idiot. Fuckin attention-seeker. I went home at around 2200.

Monday
There wasn't any school but my alarm went off. I almost woke up and showered but luckily I didn't. Razmy called me at 10. Fuckin idiot. I talked to him on the phone with my sleepy voice and a groggy head. Met up with him and Din at BB MRT and went to meet the rest of My Bad Friday. We're jamming this Saturday and after that I'll be going to ComicStrip's gig! =) I'm so excited.

Goddamn, MT O level results is gonna be out in less that 12 hours. Fuckin hell I'm shaking. I'm afraid that I won't be able to pass ENOUGH. I don't want to take the exam again. I want to concentrate on other subjects with my free MT period. Hope that will happen. Saw Sukashi with Fliq just now at 188. I didn't know Sukashi took Pure Bio and A maths on top of her other subjects and asked how she cope. She said she didn't do her homework and concentrate on her revising first. And after she finish revising for that particular subject then she will do the homework given. I thought to myself, that's a good revise strategy. I should focus on my English first, then my mathS, and my humanities. I wouldn't mind much for Sciences coz the course that I'm aiming for needs humanities, media-related. Oh well. Let's first hope for the best for my MT O Level.

I have English oral this Thursday! Fuckin hell. I don't think I can score for the Picture Discussion part. Pfft~ Oh, and it's also Kiddo's 18th birthday. =) I don't think I'll be getting him anything. Haha~

I wish I wasn't in love. With the wrong person.